Let's Ring In The New Year

Life is... well... life. :)
I make thousands of mistakes everyday. But I don't regret a single one of them. They've taught me incredible lessons. I've learned to live without regret. Forgive and forget. :)
Easier said than done, right?
Forgetting isn't always the best thing to do. What is life without memories? Not a good one.
I absolutely LOVE remembering. Even when it hurts. Like remembering someone who died. Or someone who used to be in your life... Someone you loved. Or a time that you can never bring back. Or an experience that changed you forever. Good or bad.
Life is about being happy. So celebrate life. Live every moment to the fullest. Don't care what other people say. Do what YOU want. Be yourself. Love yourself. Enjoy the little things. Don't focus on what you've left behind. Don't worry about what MIGHT happen. You can't stop bad things from happening, but you CAN choose whether to embrace them with open arms or not. Don't let any opportunity pass you by. And make sure that when you look back on your life, you smile.
No matter what you've done, who you've been, who you are, or who you'll become, know that you're amazing. Your life is beautiful. And you don't need ANYONE.
I don't trust people, because in my experience, people lie. It's not that they're bad, or intend to hurt me. It's just human nature. I love, but not exceedingly. I'm independent, but still enjoy company. I'm confident, but humble.
Before you can love someone else. You HAVE to love yourself. No ifs, ands, or buts about it. You MUST love everything about YOU.
I've wasted way too much time worrying that I'm not good enough, wishing for more, and fishing for attention. I finally realize that I can be happy on my own, and I absolutely LOVE my life. Is it perfect? No.
But nothing can right if nothing is wrong. :)
I live in every moment, and I savor every second.
I love the past, can't wait for the future, but I'm enjoying every second of right now. :)
Watch out 2011. It's gonna be my year. :)
Welcome to the new year everyone, let's TEAR IT APART. :)

Dear Diary Of A Girl...

"One. Two. Three..." she counted the seconds.
Her cold hands slid along the ruffled sheets on her bed. She watched the phone laying still beside her, anticipating a ring. It remained silent. She grabbed the pencil and paper from the table to her right. Scribbling little notes, humming verses of love songs, she wrote about her night. Shivers ran up her back. Her fingers stiffened and she closed her eyes, going over every detail of the past events. He had hugged her, kissed her. He was closer to her than anyone had ever been, yet, he still seemed like a stranger. He told her to trust him, believe in him, that he would never do anything to hurt her, and she desperately wanted to comply. But she was afraid. Not of him, but of herself. Credulity had always been her downfall. For once, she was happy. For once, she didn't have to prove anything. She felt loved and wanted, and she knew if she let herself trust him, it could be taken from her in a flash. It's human nature to hurt others. Even if it's unintended. She didn't want to let herself get attached, just to be severed at the ties. Taking a deep breath, she layed her head on her pillow. Staring at the ceiling she came to a decision. Against everything she knew. Against all logic. Despite her confusion and doubts... She let herself love him. :)